I've been pretty much busy with almost everything these days, i felt that there isn't enough time at all, yes there i days where i feel unproductive, feeling all sick and tired of doing some stuffs that i am supposed to be doing. These days , what have i been doing? Just mainly , my studies, my final year project(fyp), and some other stuffs, trying my best to put in 100% effort, so at the end of the day , all the efforts would be paid off.
I've pretty much been pretty emotional, lots and lots of stress are starting to kick in, i don't even know if i can handle both fyp and my studies, i tend to pay attention to one of them and neglects the other. There are times where i would get frustrated, going off to chill myself down before starting everything all over again, to people to think that i am all that care-free girl, that doesn't have any worries, i have my stuffs to worry, i'm just like you. I'm not a super fast learner, i need some time to understand the basic, before i can move on. I feel really unfair sometimes, when people think i can't do it, when people just say "You don't even know how to use that, why bother?" , " Are you sure about it?" It's really unfair to me. I haven't been coping things well these days, everything seems to be falling apart. Trying hard to control my emotions, my thoughts, it doesn't seem to work at all. I'm really tired. There are times when i wish i can just scream and shout, so those feelings would be all gone. But i guess its not even possible for me to do it. I have my problems, its not just you. I have that same heart that beats, that would get hurt and upset. I just wish that some people can understand how it feels.

Ps : Really sorry to vent everything out here.